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Last Semester of School
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OH MAN!!
Time flies freaking fast..especially in my sad little world..which i guess doesn't make it so sad in some weird way?? o.O
ANYWAY, Wish me luck on my senior project. I'm doing a comic which shows the cultural interaction between an Asian who moves to a highly diversely populated area (aka NY) in the United States. And how dance is a great medium to meet and greet different cultures and peoples. I wonder how it'll all work out..
WISH ME LUCK!
Hopefully, I'll be able to update and maybe even post! (Oh man, that would be the day..)
As the last days of my last vacation as a student go by, my brother downloaded the entire Flame of Recca series, that's 42 episodes of lovely subbed old school anime. Maaan, animation sure has a gone a super long way in anime too. Most people just really fail to recognize that as a form of cartooning, computer graphics, and animation as well..how sad.
I'm also working on finishing up my friend's wedding invitations! I'd like to get my fully accepted and approved draft by the end of January/mid-February at the latest so they can be ready for the printers and ready to distribute by March-ish. I write that here so I have a constant reminder of my so-called "timeline".
Definitely also been working on illustrations for the upcoming exhibit in April...I really hope I can make it, survive, and do really really freaking well!
Peace and Love to all~
//Posse//
//Clubbage//
Time flies freaking fast..especially in my sad little world..which i guess doesn't make it so sad in some weird way?? o.O
ANYWAY, Wish me luck on my senior project. I'm doing a comic which shows the cultural interaction between an Asian who moves to a highly diversely populated area (aka NY) in the United States. And how dance is a great medium to meet and greet different cultures and peoples. I wonder how it'll all work out..
WISH ME LUCK!
Hopefully, I'll be able to update and maybe even post! (Oh man, that would be the day..)
As the last days of my last vacation as a student go by, my brother downloaded the entire Flame of Recca series, that's 42 episodes of lovely subbed old school anime. Maaan, animation sure has a gone a super long way in anime too. Most people just really fail to recognize that as a form of cartooning, computer graphics, and animation as well..how sad.
I'm also working on finishing up my friend's wedding invitations! I'd like to get my fully accepted and approved draft by the end of January/mid-February at the latest so they can be ready for the printers and ready to distribute by March-ish. I write that here so I have a constant reminder of my so-called "timeline".
Definitely also been working on illustrations for the upcoming exhibit in April...I really hope I can make it, survive, and do really really freaking well!
Peace and Love to all~
//Posse//
//Clubbage//
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Semester's almost over!!!! *death*
2 min read
One word: PROJECTS</u>
at least one major project that's taking soo much time to finish.. for those of you who think animation is just a lot of drawing...its not. and for those of you who have done some animations, good for you mates! i'm working on mine and will continue to be building up my resume with a lot of projects...or maybe i'll work on improving my current projects coz they can still use a lot of work.
how i wish these classes were offered when i was a freshman.. *sigh*
Off to work!
Party Tonight!
Oh, it'll be such a beautiful sight! XD
//Posse//
//Clubbage//
at least one major project that's taking soo much time to finish.. for those of you who think animation is just a lot of drawing...its not. and for those of you who have done some animations, good for you mates! i'm working on mine and will continue to be building up my resume with a lot of projects...or maybe i'll work on improving my current projects coz they can still use a lot of work.
how i wish these classes were offered when i was a freshman.. *sigh*
Off to work!
Party Tonight!
Oh, it'll be such a beautiful sight! XD
//Posse//
//Clubbage//
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020709 - over it
2 min read
KIRIBAN for 1111 screenshot please. 
It felt good to really write out those frustrations! didn't make any sense, but who cares! that's what rants are for. hahaha
so i'm really hoping i get to go see james jean's art at his first solo exhibit...i NEED TO GO! tomorrow, well, technically today, is his last day and i really have *cue rent song* NO DAY BUT TODAY</i>.
wish me luck all!
PS: i've put up some stuff i've done in the past year..its not much, but im working on it.
//Posse//
//Clubbage//
It felt good to really write out those frustrations! didn't make any sense, but who cares! that's what rants are for. hahaha
so i'm really hoping i get to go see james jean's art at his first solo exhibit...i NEED TO GO! tomorrow, well, technically today, is his last day and i really have *cue rent song* NO DAY BUT TODAY</i>.
wish me luck all!
PS: i've put up some stuff i've done in the past year..its not much, but im working on it.
//Posse//
//Clubbage//
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020209 - Frustration Raging Rant
4 min read
WARNING (long and prolly nonsensical rant)
I've been really frustrated lately... I've only begun to really become aware of my responses to people and to certain situations and I find that responsibilities and duties have ran me most of my entire life... and that's its tough to let that go...you'd think it'd be kind of be an easy choice: "life of freedom or life of duty".. apparently not.
what really gets me though is that despite coming from a big family, you'd think your parents would have a greater sense in asking ALL kids to help out. i mean, that's a lot of free manpower they have at their disposal! but what do they do? dump most of it all on one. i totally don't understand why though.. i've questioned, and they've answered with all sorts of answers ranging from "it's because we can count on you" to "you should know better. and then you on most occasions, you get the guilt-trip of a lifetime over something small and it evolves into this whole massive lecture... it feels like getting hit by the bullet train..sudden and real painful..
yesterday, the entire day was filled with orders... "do this, and do that" and even "why don't you do ____, you're not doing anything anyway."... and then some. it's really frustrating when you get no time to have for yourself. i barely get that in school and when i'm home, i'd like to see it as a sanctuary from your worries. if anything, i'd think i should feel more energized to work when i'm home, although lately, that's not been the case. once i do get to sit down and start relaxin, it just gets disrupted. i'm starting to think that there are things out there to get me.. to stop me from enjoying what i can possibly get out of life. and it's really sucking~ T_T the entire day - from the time i woke up, til the time i closed my eyes - i felt so....lost.. i was feeling really pathetic and sad...everything just piled up for me..it was one of those days....
also, has anyone of you felt that you aren't being taken seriously or are being taken too seriously? and i say this for situations that imply the opposite of what one would call for, say, if its something you're interested in, they don't really take an interest...or when you crack a joke, they take it personally, even though they should know better because they know you... if you have, i totally feel for you. i know what its like to have no one whose physically so close and yet have no one to turn to and no one to share your small joys with. it's frustrating to know that they all have this idea in their head about what you can do or might be able to do yet not supporting you in any shape or form. the expectation doesn't really fit skill, and its embarrassing.. especially when they start bragging about you and you know you got nothing to back it up with and in the end, you get burned by their anger and resentment because you did not live up to their totally baseless expectations.
so fucking tired.....
..i wish time would just hold still for a couple of days so that i may find what i have lost.
//Posse//
//Clubbage//
I've been really frustrated lately... I've only begun to really become aware of my responses to people and to certain situations and I find that responsibilities and duties have ran me most of my entire life... and that's its tough to let that go...you'd think it'd be kind of be an easy choice: "life of freedom or life of duty".. apparently not.
what really gets me though is that despite coming from a big family, you'd think your parents would have a greater sense in asking ALL kids to help out. i mean, that's a lot of free manpower they have at their disposal! but what do they do? dump most of it all on one. i totally don't understand why though.. i've questioned, and they've answered with all sorts of answers ranging from "it's because we can count on you" to "you should know better. and then you on most occasions, you get the guilt-trip of a lifetime over something small and it evolves into this whole massive lecture... it feels like getting hit by the bullet train..sudden and real painful..
yesterday, the entire day was filled with orders... "do this, and do that" and even "why don't you do ____, you're not doing anything anyway."... and then some. it's really frustrating when you get no time to have for yourself. i barely get that in school and when i'm home, i'd like to see it as a sanctuary from your worries. if anything, i'd think i should feel more energized to work when i'm home, although lately, that's not been the case. once i do get to sit down and start relaxin, it just gets disrupted. i'm starting to think that there are things out there to get me.. to stop me from enjoying what i can possibly get out of life. and it's really sucking~ T_T the entire day - from the time i woke up, til the time i closed my eyes - i felt so....lost.. i was feeling really pathetic and sad...everything just piled up for me..it was one of those days....
also, has anyone of you felt that you aren't being taken seriously or are being taken too seriously? and i say this for situations that imply the opposite of what one would call for, say, if its something you're interested in, they don't really take an interest...or when you crack a joke, they take it personally, even though they should know better because they know you... if you have, i totally feel for you. i know what its like to have no one whose physically so close and yet have no one to turn to and no one to share your small joys with. it's frustrating to know that they all have this idea in their head about what you can do or might be able to do yet not supporting you in any shape or form. the expectation doesn't really fit skill, and its embarrassing.. especially when they start bragging about you and you know you got nothing to back it up with and in the end, you get burned by their anger and resentment because you did not live up to their totally baseless expectations.
so fucking tired.....
..i wish time would just hold still for a couple of days so that i may find what i have lost.
//Posse//
//Clubbage//
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the body is abused but happy(?)
2 min read
The first whole week of school started and i find myself totally exhausted after mondays and wednesdays...why is that? is it because my classes are so effing long??!
probably. so when i get home, i pass out on the couch..so sad..but i'm learning lots of new things and techniques and ideas! and of course, more artists that i know about so i can stalk them... lol
but one thing that really made me happy and giddy was when my prof. told me i have talent...can u imagine that??! haha if he was being nice, i really don't mind. haha it was just like getting the meal you were craving for and it being every bit as tasty as the way you imagined it would be.
a random thing i learned was that ever since school started, my appetite's been shot. ...now i don't know about you guys but this just should NOT be happening! i ALWAYS had a good appetite..i'll even go as far as to admit it's more than good actually.. haha but yeah...and it's just not healthy. any ideas on what to do? *squeals for help*
the highlight of my day yesterday, was the hiphop class me and a friend attended. it was totally cool. we learned about 4 eight counts (that's a lot to learn in an hour!) to the song "Swagger Like Us" and i verified the fact that i cannot dance.
yes lauren, CANNOT..
//Posse//
//Clubbage//
probably. so when i get home, i pass out on the couch..so sad..but i'm learning lots of new things and techniques and ideas! and of course, more artists that i know about so i can stalk them... lol
but one thing that really made me happy and giddy was when my prof. told me i have talent...can u imagine that??! haha if he was being nice, i really don't mind. haha it was just like getting the meal you were craving for and it being every bit as tasty as the way you imagined it would be.
a random thing i learned was that ever since school started, my appetite's been shot. ...now i don't know about you guys but this just should NOT be happening! i ALWAYS had a good appetite..i'll even go as far as to admit it's more than good actually.. haha but yeah...and it's just not healthy. any ideas on what to do? *squeals for help*
the highlight of my day yesterday, was the hiphop class me and a friend attended. it was totally cool. we learned about 4 eight counts (that's a lot to learn in an hour!) to the song "Swagger Like Us" and i verified the fact that i cannot dance.
yes lauren, CANNOT..
//Posse//
//Clubbage//
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